I was hired by the school where I graduated…they hire me as high school English teacher…
well thinking that the adversity stops as soon as I got my job…but I have encountered more trials in life…they become even worst… I felt in love and experience to be broken hearted.. many times
At first… I was actually looking for a father image and so I have fallen in love to older guys… but I was wrong…because the relationship never works… until such time that I though it was a soul mate and the answer to my prayer… there was an intelligent guy who courted me, and I had like him too….I thought he will lead me to marriage but he had stolen everything from me…My life, my soul, my self-esteem and even my confidence… He got all those things from me…. And left me worthless…. IT was the greatest nightmare that comes in my life…… its hard to accept the reality so I decided to commit suicide… HE had stolen everything from me… it happened to me at Christmas time… it was late in the afternoon that I had prepared my suicidal letter and got a sharp blade to cut my pulse… I locked my room and I started to pray.. to prepare myself to death …. I wanted to die at that time… until suddenly my stepmom saw me… I cried out loud because I don’t want to live anymore…she hugged me tight… and listens to my woes…. I told her everything…. I lost myself… and at that moment my stepmom become closer to me..and she is the only one who understands me and never judge me as who I am…instead she becomes my confidante… My father never knew about everything from me…its only my stepmom… she raise my self esteem…but its hard to pretend that I lost my confdence.. .thinking that no guy will accept me anymore…because of the worst nightmare… I was just like the crazy woman after that incident when I wake up…I was helpless… I keep on crying….i lost myself………that’s why I wanted to die… nobody knows what happened to me. .even my family ,my brothers and my sisters… I kept it into myself… and after that incident I thought no guy will love me and accept me as who I am………
But I still continued to live and survive… after two months… I was almost dead when I met an accident… a bombed explode in Gaisano mall where I just passed by…...The splinter of the bomb struck my arms and blood flowed out from it…I was almost wet with my own blood…it flows like a water… I was brought to the hospital by the people.. … I cried for pain…. The doctor had injected me two vials of novaine but I struggle for my breath , I can’t breathed… so they rush me to the operating room and got the oxygen to place it to my nostrils … I still keep on struggling for survival….. As I was at the operating room… the doctors got panic because I almost die for a few minutes… I knew it …because I have gone to the place that I really don’t know…It was so dark and nobody was there except Jesus who was standing with his back at me…. I never saw his face… because we was standing backward… and I have learned to remember all the things that had happened to me…. My suicidal attempt … and everything has flash back… and I have learned that there are lots of people who have cared for me… my students were there, my relatives, friends , neighbors were outside the hospital waiting for me to come out from the operating room… there were people crying and praying for me because they don’t want me to die…
The accident gives me a second chance of life…it reminds me that there are lots of people who loves me and cares for me. my family, my father was there beside me and never leave me and never sleeps and waits for me until I wake up from my operation… The operation ended for four hours… I was moved from it, because I know GOD loves me so much…HE doesn’t want me to die yet…because he has still a lot of plan for me… and so after that incident…after those things that happened to me.. I learned to value life… I have survived from it… and I know LIFE would still go on… Facing a new beginning… Facing and waiting Gods good plan for me… I offer everything to God… my life and my whole being… I knew that inspite of everything I know people around me loves me so much…. I have already forgiven the guy who stole my dignity
I know that there will be someone who will accept me as who I am…whatever Gods plan for me…I will accept it…because I know God has prepared everything for me… I will just wait for it…and just enjoy my everyday life…pray everyday to GOD to Jesus… to lead us into the right path…
I keep on praying to give me strength that there will be more people who will accept me and believes in me … I am now helping myself to gain confidence…and starting to face a new challenge in life…..
I know its hard for me to publish my life story in blog.. but I want the people to learn and be inspired from my experiences..
well thinking that the adversity stops as soon as I got my job…but I have encountered more trials in life…they become even worst… I felt in love and experience to be broken hearted.. many times
At first… I was actually looking for a father image and so I have fallen in love to older guys… but I was wrong…because the relationship never works… until such time that I though it was a soul mate and the answer to my prayer… there was an intelligent guy who courted me, and I had like him too….I thought he will lead me to marriage but he had stolen everything from me…My life, my soul, my self-esteem and even my confidence… He got all those things from me…. And left me worthless…. IT was the greatest nightmare that comes in my life…… its hard to accept the reality so I decided to commit suicide… HE had stolen everything from me… it happened to me at Christmas time… it was late in the afternoon that I had prepared my suicidal letter and got a sharp blade to cut my pulse… I locked my room and I started to pray.. to prepare myself to death …. I wanted to die at that time… until suddenly my stepmom saw me… I cried out loud because I don’t want to live anymore…she hugged me tight… and listens to my woes…. I told her everything…. I lost myself… and at that moment my stepmom become closer to me..and she is the only one who understands me and never judge me as who I am…instead she becomes my confidante… My father never knew about everything from me…its only my stepmom… she raise my self esteem…but its hard to pretend that I lost my confdence.. .thinking that no guy will accept me anymore…because of the worst nightmare… I was just like the crazy woman after that incident when I wake up…I was helpless… I keep on crying….i lost myself………that’s why I wanted to die… nobody knows what happened to me. .even my family ,my brothers and my sisters… I kept it into myself… and after that incident I thought no guy will love me and accept me as who I am………
But I still continued to live and survive… after two months… I was almost dead when I met an accident… a bombed explode in Gaisano mall where I just passed by…...The splinter of the bomb struck my arms and blood flowed out from it…I was almost wet with my own blood…it flows like a water… I was brought to the hospital by the people.. … I cried for pain…. The doctor had injected me two vials of novaine but I struggle for my breath , I can’t breathed… so they rush me to the operating room and got the oxygen to place it to my nostrils … I still keep on struggling for survival….. As I was at the operating room… the doctors got panic because I almost die for a few minutes… I knew it …because I have gone to the place that I really don’t know…It was so dark and nobody was there except Jesus who was standing with his back at me…. I never saw his face… because we was standing backward… and I have learned to remember all the things that had happened to me…. My suicidal attempt … and everything has flash back… and I have learned that there are lots of people who have cared for me… my students were there, my relatives, friends , neighbors were outside the hospital waiting for me to come out from the operating room… there were people crying and praying for me because they don’t want me to die…
The accident gives me a second chance of life…it reminds me that there are lots of people who loves me and cares for me. my family, my father was there beside me and never leave me and never sleeps and waits for me until I wake up from my operation… The operation ended for four hours… I was moved from it, because I know GOD loves me so much…HE doesn’t want me to die yet…because he has still a lot of plan for me… and so after that incident…after those things that happened to me.. I learned to value life… I have survived from it… and I know LIFE would still go on… Facing a new beginning… Facing and waiting Gods good plan for me… I offer everything to God… my life and my whole being… I knew that inspite of everything I know people around me loves me so much…. I have already forgiven the guy who stole my dignity
I know that there will be someone who will accept me as who I am…whatever Gods plan for me…I will accept it…because I know God has prepared everything for me… I will just wait for it…and just enjoy my everyday life…pray everyday to GOD to Jesus… to lead us into the right path…
I keep on praying to give me strength that there will be more people who will accept me and believes in me … I am now helping myself to gain confidence…and starting to face a new challenge in life…..
I know its hard for me to publish my life story in blog.. but I want the people to learn and be inspired from my experiences..
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