I thought life is so easy. When I was young, I never had experienced problems that comes out my way, as long as I can eat and play all day life is so easy…I do have a happy family when I was still young, I am happy to have a responsible father and a loving and caring Mom…I don’t know any household chores…our life were so blest with bounteous blessings.
Until such time that there were storms comes out along my way.. .my Dad lost his job and he involved in gambling, that made our life goes down. And I have found out that we have lost those abundant things in our life…. I can’t buy the toys, dresses that I want….life becomes harder…
Until such time that happiness at home has been stolen with nightmare… My mom was diagnosed with cervical cancer and she was just given by the doctor one year to live, but cancer has strewn fast and live for just 6 months …everybody at home were horrendous about my mom’s case…she can’t be with us anymore…I was just 17 at that time…feel helpless and weak…My Mom’s gonna die? Its hard to accept the reality… but it is I guess Gods plan for us. Every time cancer will attack her…I almost died crying for pain, as I look at her…I keep on praying to God that my Mom would still be given a miracle…. I was actually praying to God that I am going to exchange my life for her…but it was not granted….I have hated God before, because I thought he was selfish…he didn’t answer my prayer…but as time goes by…I really need to accept the fact that Mom is now dead… it’s the pain fullest experience I ever had… I can’t live without my Mom..she is my strength, my guide, my ever loving best friend. I love her so much…she is the best Mom in the world….nobody can ever replaced her in my heart. There are times that I had miss her so much, hoping that she will come again to life…maybe I’m crazy about it..I know it will not happen anymore… and she will not be alive again…it took me 5 years to accept the reality …that she is totally dead and she is in good hands at heaven…although I keep on wishing that I can meet her even in my dreams… I grew up with full of love and care by my Mom…At my young age, I become more mature and become more closer to GOD… but there’s one thing that I hate most at that time when my Mom was lost…My father cannot recover from pain… he become so irresponsible …and he never take care of us anymore…leaving all his responsibilities to me…I become a mom and dad to my other siblings…. Its hard because I have focused myself in two..my studies and my responsibility in taking care of them… I never experience joy during my college years, instead I need to be serious to my studies since I am the only hope for my family… My father had engaged into different vices, he become a drunkard and had slept with different woman… I don’t know why he is doing that….I can’t understand him… and so I hated him so much…He never showed his love to us anymore and he keep on thinking of his own self…he was so selfish!!! There are times when I got to think of our situations, the pains, the hardships in life… I got to think of killing myself…I felt that I don’t want to live anymore…I wanted to commit suicide because I can’t take it …. Life is so difficult… it seems that nobody loves me …. Aside from my mom…. And I always miss her so much…
My hangout is always at the church, because whenever I am there it makes me relieved… JESUS is my only strength… I cried to him whenever I can’t take the pain anymore… And so I just continue to study hard, since my only inspiration is my family… and offer everything to my MOM…
At last I had finished my studies… I graduated CUM LAUDE but I was never happy…. Because that’s my Mom’s ultimate dream…she wanted to put up my medal during my graduation… .. Tears always flowed out from my eyes… as I remember her… her beautiful face and sweet ways in caring us…. Wishing she is still alive…. Wishing to meet her again…. But I know it will never happen…..
Its hard to live without a Mom who nurtures us in everything…Nobody have shield me whenever I need her… I have no Mom to cry on her shoulder… I was so young and helpless… but I have overcome everything in Life…
Life needs to go on, and waves into the flow of the river…
I worked hard all day…to face those trials… and become responsible to my brothers and sisters….
Until such time that there were storms comes out along my way.. .my Dad lost his job and he involved in gambling, that made our life goes down. And I have found out that we have lost those abundant things in our life…. I can’t buy the toys, dresses that I want….life becomes harder…
Until such time that happiness at home has been stolen with nightmare… My mom was diagnosed with cervical cancer and she was just given by the doctor one year to live, but cancer has strewn fast and live for just 6 months …everybody at home were horrendous about my mom’s case…she can’t be with us anymore…I was just 17 at that time…feel helpless and weak…My Mom’s gonna die? Its hard to accept the reality… but it is I guess Gods plan for us. Every time cancer will attack her…I almost died crying for pain, as I look at her…I keep on praying to God that my Mom would still be given a miracle…. I was actually praying to God that I am going to exchange my life for her…but it was not granted….I have hated God before, because I thought he was selfish…he didn’t answer my prayer…but as time goes by…I really need to accept the fact that Mom is now dead… it’s the pain fullest experience I ever had… I can’t live without my Mom..she is my strength, my guide, my ever loving best friend. I love her so much…she is the best Mom in the world….nobody can ever replaced her in my heart. There are times that I had miss her so much, hoping that she will come again to life…maybe I’m crazy about it..I know it will not happen anymore… and she will not be alive again…it took me 5 years to accept the reality …that she is totally dead and she is in good hands at heaven…although I keep on wishing that I can meet her even in my dreams… I grew up with full of love and care by my Mom…At my young age, I become more mature and become more closer to GOD… but there’s one thing that I hate most at that time when my Mom was lost…My father cannot recover from pain… he become so irresponsible …and he never take care of us anymore…leaving all his responsibilities to me…I become a mom and dad to my other siblings…. Its hard because I have focused myself in two..my studies and my responsibility in taking care of them… I never experience joy during my college years, instead I need to be serious to my studies since I am the only hope for my family… My father had engaged into different vices, he become a drunkard and had slept with different woman… I don’t know why he is doing that….I can’t understand him… and so I hated him so much…He never showed his love to us anymore and he keep on thinking of his own self…he was so selfish!!! There are times when I got to think of our situations, the pains, the hardships in life… I got to think of killing myself…I felt that I don’t want to live anymore…I wanted to commit suicide because I can’t take it …. Life is so difficult… it seems that nobody loves me …. Aside from my mom…. And I always miss her so much…
My hangout is always at the church, because whenever I am there it makes me relieved… JESUS is my only strength… I cried to him whenever I can’t take the pain anymore… And so I just continue to study hard, since my only inspiration is my family… and offer everything to my MOM…
At last I had finished my studies… I graduated CUM LAUDE but I was never happy…. Because that’s my Mom’s ultimate dream…she wanted to put up my medal during my graduation… .. Tears always flowed out from my eyes… as I remember her… her beautiful face and sweet ways in caring us…. Wishing she is still alive…. Wishing to meet her again…. But I know it will never happen…..
Its hard to live without a Mom who nurtures us in everything…Nobody have shield me whenever I need her… I have no Mom to cry on her shoulder… I was so young and helpless… but I have overcome everything in Life…
Life needs to go on, and waves into the flow of the river…
I worked hard all day…to face those trials… and become responsible to my brothers and sisters….
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